Mariposx Healing's 3 Year Anniversary

Yesterday (11/13/23) Mariposx Healing’s 3 Year Anniversary and I have some news to share with you.

I quit my job as a therapist, again.

Let me tell you how I got here.

I started Mariposx Healing while I was in graduate school three years ago during 2020. I started this space because as I focused in my healing the spaces I found where mostly white cishet centered and led. That’s the last thing I needed as I tried to express my rage towards the oppression and pain of colonialism.

I was angry. I felt hopeless. I created this for my community and for myself.

I graduated and got a job as a therapist in a non-profit that made me sick and burned me out. I quit last year and took a 6-month break. During this break I focused more on community building and community care. I found another position in a private practice that seemed more aligned with my values and the way I wanted to provide care to others.

I felt supported and valued. But even then, being part of these harmful whyte cishet centered systems did not feel okay for me. Even if I had a non-carceral approach, even if I was client centered, even if I used my tools like drumming, and somatic movement. I was still complicit in these colonial western systems that I despise so much. I started to feel sick again. I was doing a disservice to myself and my clients.

All this year Ive been part of an akashic mentorship with Leah Garza that focuses on desire. I learned to lean into my desires. To trust myself. To trust the universe. To trust my community. To trust that what I love loves me back and takes care of me. This is true. I am so taken care of. And I am so grateful.

I am not self-made I am community made.

I want to live in a way that is a nightmare to colonizers. A nightmare to the colonizer lineage in me.

It did not and will not break my indigenous spirit who craves love, community, art, creativity, and the land.

I have awakened from the nightmare that was cast on my spirit. Enforced and policed by the indoctrination of a white supremacist religion.

I release my body from the judgement and expectations cast upon it. From the disconnection that happened because of abuse.

I decided to follow my dream. To put purpose over profession I decided to take a leap of faith. And I am immensely grateful that after the fall there were people, angels, plants, animals, spirits, and energies there to catch me. I am not alone I was never alone.

I remember my power now and want to remind you of yours.

So that we no longer depend on these shitty, harmful systems as a means to survive. So that we continue to turn to each other for care and support. Let’s make the government obsolete. What good will appeasing colonialism do us when we have nothing left to drink or eat? What good is money? What good is a degree? What good is a piece of paper when my people aren’t free?

I want to create a space for you where you can dream big. What are your desires and how can you use them to help yourself and your community. Will you dare to dream with me? Dream of collective liberation. Can you be brave with me and dream even if others say its naïve. Yes, dreaming as we witness a genocide. Dreaming that they’re free. Dreaming that their olive trees grow again. Dreaming that there are no walls. That people don’t have to work themselves to sickness to survive.

And of course, not just dreaming to dream. Dreaming to take action. So we know what we need to do from within.

What is your purpose and role in this liberation? Is it to fight, to weave, to educate, to hold space, to heal, to create, to cry, to breathe, to birth, to cook, to organize?

To dream so we recognize an existence built on care and liberation. So we divest from the horrors that harm us and learn to identify them within ourselves. How are we upholding coloniality? How can we divest from it? What can we do instead?

Let’s explore this together. Please take a look at my current offerings on my website.

I am still facilitating Individual and Group Guided Movement and Meditation sessions. I have a new peer counseling offering as well where I used my lived experience to support you with your wellness and collective liberation intentions.

Feel free to email me at mariposxhealing@gmail.com with any questions.